Time killed my chances

There are some enemies in our lives whom we never take care off...!!!
Well, some of us won’t find it out until their death bed.
One which needs to be taken care off is TIME.

First with us blaming someone else for mistake of ours own by wasting our own precious time.
Second with doing something what others ask to do by assuming that they are better than you.
Third, of course is by wasting your time by waiting for the right moment.

We do mistakes by wasting our precious time by doing something our friends or relatives asked us to do. But before doing anything it’s always good to question to your own self that “can you..?” If you get a positive reply from your side, try it some 3 times and if same thing continues, kick start the purpose and you can achieve what you have desired for. Blaming them because that precious time has passed away is not right because they might have tried to help you in the way they thought or felt about your decision.

If you ever felt that what your friends or close ones gave was a good suggestion, then you have no right to ask him at the end if end up as failure because it was you who took decision.

The time never comes back once you lose it. Best example was taking a stupid decision and leaving a pretty girl who was so close to me in all your high schooling and choosing a gal who was not at all mine; now falling behind her and not even able to get to her is really a bad condition of any human. But it’s all because of me. Well now, I feel matured..

hope to get her.. because loved her like anything..

Waiting for love

She was sitting alone on a chair at a corner of a park where much people don’t visit and was trying to control her tears. Tears flowing down were similar to sun who was also going down to make the one half of globe dark.

There was no single lane in which I hadn’t searched for her, even after searching for 7 hours all I was to say that I had no idea of where she was.

I was remembering the places where we used to go when we were happy, when we were sad, when we scored less marks, when we scored more.etc

I just questioned myself that how could I forget her favorite park. I rushed to the park and my rush hadn’t gone for waste as I found her there. Now I had tears in my eyes remembering what had happened to make situation this worse.

Her name is Sana. We were in relationship for almost 16 months by then and just then I had started sharing funny incidents that me and my friends had occurred with a neighbor who was from Punjab of my friend Yash. She was fun loving, practical, jovial etc.

As my girl is from North India, making sonali and Sana socialize would make my girl feel good because she was feeling kind of loneliness with my friends as I am from Bangalore. Even Sana enjoyed it and they even exchanged their mail-id and began chatting. Sonali shifted to Switzerland with her family, but remained in contact with my girl(thanks to internet). They became very friendly and enjoyed each other’s company.

As there are always bad things in every good thing, sonali was a fan of a guruji who predicts future and even past by looking at eyes and hand.
I don’t know whether it was co-incidence or true, what he used to say used to happen and my girl had become an addition to that guruji’s disciple’s list. Problem has started as guruji had asked her to visit temples, wear particular color dress on particular day, fasting and what not!

I even knowing all this was quiet because she had trusted him and good seemed to happen. Now as the days passed, on one particular day this sonali and guruji played a prank with Sana saying there’s a soul on your guy’s body and you have do some pooja to get rid of all this evil’s and as time had proved that guruji’s words would come true, she blindly believed him and even did the same. But sonali and guruji had now shared a healthy laugh in front of me saying we have fooled your girl. I couldn’t take it anymore, hence I just informed my girl about this and now she had started giving me slangs for not telling her before.

Actually she was right too.. But I too dint have much knowledge about him or else. She took out her frustration and anger on me. I was quiet because I felt it was my mistakes making this people mingle. When we met, I just apologized her. But she was too badly affected by the embarrassment in front of her own self. I tried to console her, but she was nowhere ready to listen to my words. Even after sitting next to her for more than 2 hours, she was in no mood of coming to reality or maybe I felt time is bit important as I had technical configuration classes which had to happen.

I asked her, ‘sana,come I will drop you to hostel’

‘No, its k...Actually you have training. So you can make your move ‘, she replied.

I tried to convince her more for dropping her to hostel was unsuccessful for even 7^th attempt. Now I had less time and requested her again. But she had same reply saying ‘I will spend some more time; you can leave’.

Now I had made my move saying ‘Good bye. I love you’.

She said bye.

I got a text to my phone saying “I never expected that you would leave me in middle of road like that. I hate you”

I was now in bias to go to coaching or to go back to her.
my heart too felt that let me go to my girl and I went to place where we had talk 5 minutes ago; but now she was not there and even phone was coming switch off. I searched and searched, but got a message stating ‘I am in hostel, Go and attend your training.’   

With this relief, I had left for training and as I finished my traning,i checked my phone log after I came out of training hall, I had some 30-40 missed calls saying Sana is not in hostel.

Hence the search started and ended after 7 hours.

Now that I could see her, I went to her for apologizing; she dint feel like seeing my face too. May be I could have waited, but I couldn’t have missed my training too…

I wish she realizes the true love of mine very soon and come back.  

bAd dAy

Sorry friends…… J J J

Couldn’t add any post for last few days because of exxaaaammmsss!!!!
This is an incident that happened during the study holidays for my exams…

I get up very late when I don’t have classes. But that day my mom forced me to get up early to get her some medicines. I was really angry on my mom for waking me up. When I entered the washroom I saw a sparrow trying it’s hard to group some small sticks to build its nest. I was totally pissed off as it was making the washroom as its home. I was into a perception that it would make the washroom dirty and it was already 3 days over since it had started piling things on for its construction. Me, who was totally angry on my mom showed my anger by throwing those things out of window when it left to collect things. When it came back, it had nothing left for itself but the sticks, grass etc which it had to work hard to collect them. The way it looked at me, I just can’t forget that. L L

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Because it almost made an expression which reflected “you cruel devil...Today you have disrespected my hard work…you’ll understand when someone disrespects your hard work...”

By then my mom entered the scene and screamed at me as if I had killed that sparrow because my mom loves animals, birds a lot… by then I had understood my mistake… I went down to bring that sticks and grass which I threw out. When I brought those things back and kept them at the same place, bird dint even bother to touch it. Now I almost felt like killing myself because its silence itself had made me feel guilty. Bird which stayed there till then now flew away out of window. The guiltiness I am feeling is still hurting a lot inside...the intention of writing this was to just mention to you that never ever behave rudely with those kinds of animals. They would take a small amount of place in your house or office or wherever… just try to be a better human because I have experienced how much it hurts and the guiltiness felt by that.I don't want my friends to experience that worse....

lOvE iS iNjUrIoUs tO hEaLtH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is true love story which i gotta hear from my friend...

When i actually heard this story,i too dint believe that how can something like this happen in any one's life...

I thought my friend was lying and i asked him to stop bluffing.But one Sunday evening,my friend took me to his house.A guy who is somewhere around 24-25 opened the door welcoming us in.He asked us to get seated and asked my friend who is this ? pointing at me. My friend introduced me to him and told the reason why we were there for.He asked his maid to bring juice for us and suddenly he started gazing here and there.In fractions of seconds,we could witness tears in his eyes.At that particular moment,i started questioning myself that why the hell did i ask that question,but after all i had been to him only for that and if i don't get that information,then there was no reason for us going to his house.After a minute or two,he got up from his chair and asked us to follow him.He took us to his study room where we could see a line " y did u do this to me?" written all over his walls in spray paints and some stuff which made me asking myself that whether he is abnormal or psycho or something like that.But suddenly he turned back to us and asked us to get seated in the bean bag which were placed here and there in his room and opened his laptop and showed her photos and the room was so silent and calm without nobody speaking,instead having a look at the photo's.
He suddenly broke the silence by saying "Her name is swathi".He said us that i'll tell you the whole story after our dinner.I called my mom and said that i won't be coming and said combined study and doing assignments for which she was surprised to hear that words me and studies. She was happy to hear and said come early in the morning for which i replied "ya,sure" and we had our dinner.After finishing our dinner,we headed back to his room.As soon as we reached the room,i asked him to start his love story and end it by morning for which he started laughing and replied saying ok.Let him explain his story himself.
"I am from a middle class family and i couldn't expect anything more than fee's for my studies as my parents had lost all money spending on my sister's marriage and a traditional gifts to my brother-in-law.Sometimes my parents found it difficult even to pay for my fee's as we had done some loan for sister's marriage and all my dad's salary used to go to that interest.I passed out with 72% as my percentage in my 10th std.My parents were sad instead of being happy,but they had a reason to be so as they were worried about.Their worry was about which college should their son join and how much would colleges ask as donation and all.But finally they were relaxed as i got a seat in one of the colleges near my house and even the fee was very much affordable.And i felt like my dreams were coming true because always loved to wear color dress as college dress.And finally the p.u classes commenced with finding some of my school friends in the same college and i found one chick for whom i was attracted a bit because she was really gorgeous,but i controlled all my emotions within myself because by then some of my friends were saying that they had crush on her.And the classes continued well,but i found it difficult to understand trigonometry and physics problems.So joined for tutorials for which my brother-in-law paid the fee and i found 8 guys from our own college tutorials and since i had joined late to tutorials,my tution teachers suggested me to take to notes from fellow mates and they even suggested that swathi's notes would be good.I agreed for that,took notes from her and copied the same notes to my book and returned the book and thanked her for giving her books to me.In the tests conducted in college,she had secured second rank whereas i was in 4th position.But my like for books increased and kept a target of securing first position.My hard work din't go for waste as i had secured first position and the same swathi had lost first position by 2 marks for which she was angry on me for which she came and said "Don't be so proud of yourself because your happiness won't stay for more time",for which i replied "f**k off" and she went crying from there.But i then felt that i shouldn't have abused a girl in that manner and wanted to ask sorry.I thought i would apologize in tutorials,but she hadn't come to tutorials that day.So took her number from her friend and called her and apologized for which even she apologized saying that she also had done a mistake.I said it was ok and said bye and hanged the phone down.When i reached my home,i found my sister who got a news that i had topped in mid term exams from my friends who had already bought a cell-phone for me.Till that moment,i was so much into studies but the moment i got the mobile,my brain acted like one of monkey's.I called all my friends saying that i got a new cell phone as a gift and after calling all,i felt like even calling her(swathi) and giving my number to her.So after lot of thinking sent a text to her saying that "hey,this is bharath here!!! this is my num" for which i even got a reply back saying "ok,stay in touch..i'll txt u ltr"
You won't believe it guys,we became so close that we were almost 18 hours together(6 hours in college,2 hours in tutorials and rest 7 to 8 hours on phone) and thanks to bsnl for that as it was 10ps/min for any one number for which i had selected her's as that number.But we were still good friends and nothing more than that.But there was a guy called abhi in our class who was behind this girl who even went further doubting about us and warned me that i shouldn't talk to her nor see her for which i opposed and said you have no right to say that for which he said i'm her boyfriend.I couldn't control my laugh anymore because swathi used to crack jokes about him with me and we used to enjoy and i called swathi to come to college canteen and she said that he is not her boyfriend for which i started laughing loudly.He interrupted to our laugh and asked me " who are you to her?". I replied saying you don't have to know it for which he asked me "Is she your gal"? and started laughing for which she answered "Yes,he is my guy.do you have a problem?".
The whole canteen suddenly became silent and all including me were shocked to hear that,hearing to that abhi and his guys went out of canteen.I was completely shocked to her reply to those guys,but suddenly swathi said sorry and she had to say like that to escape from those guys.Now i felt what she had done was better than saying no which would end up her in trouble.And we got seated in canteen and thought of going to ghajini movie which had just released then and even she ended up agreeing and we planned for the movie that weekend and watched it in pvr cinemas and had our lunch at mcd. By 6 in the evening,we were at our homes.But strange thing was i was feeling like talking to her,and again in the night we spoke for 4 hours or so and ended up sleeping phone still on.This situations became very much common as days passed by and on 31-12-2005 at night 12,she called me and said "I thought you would tell me.but you never did that.But i can't control myself anymore Bharath.i love you"
i said love you too!!!!!!!!
Days passed and we had finished our 1st pu
1st pu exams got over on feb20.And we had got summer vacations which we din't want and joined to the same tutorials as this tutorial people had said that they would start 2nd p.u tution classes very early.
Then the 1st p.u results arrived,and we had ended up being in 5th and 7th positions in final exams as we had never touched the books because all we had in hand was a cell phone.
We spent all time roaming and having fun with one another.As we used to speak in the night time,we used to speak very softly so that no one else hears it except her and that too in my room with room locked from inside.My parents who had got a doubt about me for my changing behavior actually observed me for 2 days that where do i go and with whom do i roam and all these stuff...and i was caught by my parents and my cell phone was taken from me and i was helpless.The next morning 12 p.m she was caught by her parents for this matter..
Well, actually she din't get caught by her parents as it happened in my case.She was caught by her parents by a bsnl sim.I had sent a message that "i love you swthrt" at night 1a.m.But due to some network problem,the message wasn't sent then.Instead it was sent the next morning at 12..real culprits were b.s.n.l..Her parents complained to Principal and my parents were called by principal.In principal's room,we were asked what actually happened between us and we both told the thing what actually happened.My parents as well as her parents ended up saying "if u don't leave this love,we'll leave this world" for which we both said we would leave anything on this earth,but not parents.
2days after this happened my dad received a call from her father saying that why is your son still sending messages and i actually told that i had sent it 4 days back.Not now!!! It's b.s.n.l problem......
Month later abhi and his friends ended up hitting me black and blue for which i called up my friends and took my friends to abhi and his friend's houses and cleared the account which they had given me when i was alone.
I totally lost interest in studies,started neglecting studies and wasted my precious time.
But then saw her with one of my best friends getting close and witnessed him kissing her in a park.I interrupted their kiss and scolded both of them and came out crying.By then 2nd p.u exams had arrived.I finished it with 67% which was very less and then started working for my dream.Did my bbm in christ college.
Did my mba in wales university,u.k..I started my own company from which i have earned crores and investment for business was from a loan because parents din't even have a extra penny left over after fulfilling day-day needs.Today i am successful.My parents are happy.I even gotta hear that my friend who had cheated me died in a road accident a year ago which he deserved for cheating his friends.We (me and swathi) haven't spoken after that incident.Infact never met after that.Today she is working in a software company which pays her 25000rs per month whereas i earn a net profit of 25,00,000 per month."
Well...
To be very frank
But still somewhere my heart beats faster when i see her,speak about her...





By the time he actually finished his story,it was something around 4 in the morning.My friend was snoring as he was hearing it the third time And the names have been changed because he din't want to his name and his girl's name to be told...I typed this story thinking that my frenz would be interested in such story's and the one which is 100% true!!!!!!!!